Sometimes I expect that my 16 month old can act like he is older (according to my sister on her last visit, I treat him like he is 7). I expect him to do things that I know he can do and am disappointed when he doesn't do what I ask.
Sometimes I get frustrated at my lack of motivation to clean my house, exercise, and just be a good person.
Sometimes I expect my husband to be the handy man and fix everything and do everything around the yard, and the cars. I guess that was just the way I was raised (he has been doing wonderful) and I sometimes don't give him enough credit.
Sometimes days go by and I look around and think what have I accomplished.
Sometimes I don't think that I am strong enough to do what it takes for us to have another baby (mentally, physically, and especially emotionally).
Sometimes, like this week I just want to sit down and cry or stay in bed all day (that must be the hormones talking).
I guess I am just having one of those crazy months... Sometimes life just happens. I am just glad to know that I have a caring husband who loves me in spite of all my flaws. It is also comforting to know that I have a Heavenly Father who knows me and loves me unconditionally and a Savior who knows what I am feeling and has already paid the price. I am ALWAYS grateful for having a gospel perspective on things that helps me get through months like these one day at a time.
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Sometimes I feel like that too! It does help to have the gospel doesn't it? I think you're a great person and a great mother!!
Wow! we are on the same page yo! If only we could see ourselves how Heavenly Father Sees us. We are all full of so much potential. Husbands are sure awesome at helping us feel better about ourselves. You are such a great mom, wife and friend! We all feel discouraged at times.
I loved this post Sharee! You've always been so uplifting to me and such a good friend. I can totally relate to those same feelings and fertility drugs don't make it any better.
PS I finished that chocolate zucchini loaf in two and a half days flat. I have got to get my hands on your recipe!
It's a relief to know you have hard days, too! You are such a bright spot in my life. I love you!
Know that you are not alone in any of these feelings. We've all been there...
You're doing great, really. Cut yourself a little slack and you'll find that your up for the task of life again before you know it.
Everyone needs a day to cry every once in a while. And that's ok.
Oh goodness! Totally!! Sometimes it's SO hard to be a mom. So wonderful but hard. I agree on the emotionally able part of having more kids, sometimes I don't know if I am up to it...but no turning back now (in my case). In either case, it's just one day at a time and sometimes there are great moments and sometimes there are not so great moments. You are a great mom even though there are some of those "not so great moments."
i know that life can get us down once in a while. i have been feeling all of it too. can i really get all the diaper changin, meal fixin, face wipin, house cleanin, errand runnin, hair cuttin, baby lovin, husband lovin, done in one day? somedays i really get down on myself for not thinking i can be "supermom". you are wonderful and i love you tons. i really love reading all your posts. it really makes me feel like i am not in it alone. call me and lets chat. miss you tons....when are you coming down again?
Keep your head up, I think we all ask ourselves most of those questions almost everyday. If your doing the best you can at that moment, that's great! I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
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